PRIDE - This topic has already been covered in Virtues and Vices, and undoubtedly will be handled in other sections as well.
But a thought occurred to me that I think warrants consideration.
Pride, Conceit, Vanity. Those words are generally known to be on the no-no list. And I can fairly well understand why.
But today I did something, just a little thing that didn't amount to anything, but it was something I believed I should do. So what? You do that all the time, right? So do I, sometimes. And sometimes I do bigger things that might be considered as kindly, quite decent even. And so do you.
But this time, I was aware of a little feeling that welled up in me.
Was it Pride?
I don't know. But what was happening, as I studied the feeling, was that I felt good about myself.
And that happens a lot. It's the reward I get for doing the right thing
I've talked about this elsewhere, so I won't go into it -- the doing part I mean.
So then, is my doing the right thing creating a wrong thing within me?
Is my good feeling robbing me of my reward for doing right?
As I read what the Religious Leaders say, it appears as if the answer is, yes.
And it seems to me that the Bible gives me the same conclusion.
Yet didn't the Apostles and other early church leaders say they had Joy in spite of their bonds and afflictions?
Is there a difference between Joy and feeling good about oneself?
Is it just maybe a little bit possible that Pride is a separate thing from Feelings.
Is it possible that it's not the feeling good about running the race, or even winning the race, but thinking you are better than others because you had?
Is it possible that the ultimate goal is to feel the same about yourself, and others, whether you win or not?
If that's the case, maybe the momentary, involuntary thrill we feel is not part of the problem, but rather the problem is the egotistical feeling we struggle to have accompany us wherever we go. The feeling which causes us to have to win. To have to be right. That doesn't allow us to just do, or be. We have to do better than. We have to be more than.
I suppose that's the answer. At least it's the one Ill stay with for now.
But like I have said elsewhere; don't be surprised if I question this, and every other thing, again. And if I contradict what I have just concluded, it's all part of the process.
Because no conclusions are ever drawn with me, or on this site. Only thoughts, concepts and ideas.
Besides, the answer I decided on is probably the one you knew all along. Right?
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